Lost

[DarkChild]

I know where I am but I've never felt more lost
I know that I have you and in you I put my trust
But in myself, I'm a nightmare, and I'm lost.

Something in my head, it's not quite right;
For so long now I've been putting up a fight
And losing continually. I complain, I moan
And I battle with myself and I've shown
That I'm less sure of myself than I make out.
My brain is suffering it's very own drought
I've dried up. I'm dehydrating my mind out.

I get down sometimes, I get high sometimes
I'm guilty of my very own crimes
And you don't even know...nobody knows
And I'm sure as I'm sure poetry is not prose
That I need to help myself before I fall more
And lose my very own mental nuclear war.

I cry at night and I cry in the day
I work really hard, and I try so hard to play
But it's gripping me tight like a vice
The harder it grips, the deeper the slice
I smile at you, and I make you think I'm okay
But the truth of the matter is I'm dying to say...

I know where I am but I've never felt more lost
I know that I have you, and I know you have my trust
But in myself, I'm a nightmare, something's wrong
I have to figure myself out, make myself strong
And when I do I'm sure that I'll be fine
And when I do I can live my life divine
And I'll smile at you and you'll know that I mean it
I'll be like an empty slate, you won't have to clean it
But until then, I'm still lost.

 

[Off_the_wall]

*hugs* that's so sad loose but beautiful and I can relate. You're such a talented writer <3

 

[For All Time]

thats really sad

You're such a tallented writer Love your work ...i get so absorbed when im reading them..i sometimes feel like a dragon flying somwhere inbetween Egypt and England

 

[floacist]

I get down sometimes, I get high sometimes
I'm guilty of my very own crimes
And you don't even know...nobody knows

omg:cryptic I LOVE IT! You need to seriously publish your stuff.



lets do it..k thanks, bye.

 

[Anonymous]

I know it sounds like I'm repeating myself in every reply, but I don't know another way to say it than that it really IS great! I love your creativity in both poems and blends. You are so talanted and I'm proud of youu. I can relate to this poem, I think most us can. You put the lines perfectly. I love it, and I mean that.

 

[LoveMeIfYouDare]

cool!love it!

 

[DarkChild]

thanks guys

 

[MJPowerOfLove]

so beautiful & sad
i really love it!

 

[Angel eyez]

That is how I feel most of the time. That is Beautifully written Lucy.