Paternal Anguish

[DarkChild]

I'm a conundrum of something
Sometimes I'm just going crazy
Trying to sort out my riddle
Trying to unlock my dilemma
If I'm in one, that is

I'm not sure anymore
I'm half of something great
And half of something not
My past is etched into my mind
And it whittles me down
I'm half of something unspeakable
And it whittles me down

Sometimes I get sick looking at myself
And I see those eyes in mine
How can I get rid of my dilemma
The shame of being something I know
That in my heart I'm not?

My life is good right now
But then I see those eyes and I
Panic. I don't want this in me
This evil monster, a part of me
Help me, get it out
But then again, now I think
I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him.
I can't win either way.



lol probably doesn't make any sense, but it does to me and its something thats been bugging me for ages now. I needed an outlet cause it's not easy for me to talk about =

 

[ThrillerGirl_]

Omg loooose I love it Talented hoe.

 

[floacist]

Aww I know what this is about and its good you got it out and its so well written.

Sometimes I get sick looking at myself
And I see those eyes in mine
How can I get rid of my dilemma
The shame of being something I know
That in my heart I'm not?

that was touching.

 

[privacy]

I'm not sure anymore
I'm half of something great
And half of something not
My past is etched into my mind
And it whittles me down
I'm half of something unspeakable
And it whittles me down

This is gorgeous, Lucy.. letting things out is good

Really love this one.

 

[Anonymous]

gorgeous!