I need to tell somebody or I'm gonna explode!
I have a boyfriend that I love with all my soul. I've been with him for 6 years and I would never give us up for anything or anyone.
But I can't stop thinking about this certain person...he appears in my dreams. In the dream that I had...I found out he was married and I was upset. Very upset. I am so freakin confused.
I found him so attractive the first time I laid eyes on him. Weird thing is that he's not even that good looking...and the worst part is that we work at the same place. I even check the schedule to see if I will work with him so I can attempt to look 'pretty' if he sees me. I have never had a long conversation with him but I can't help but smile a lot when he does speak to me.
He doesn't even know how I feel. I am so lame. I don't want to do anything with him. He is not worth it. I don't know him at all. His personality is probably not even my type and there's probably a ton of things we wouldn't like about each other.
It's just...extreme physical attraction. And I feel so bad. Today he worked with me and I became so angry with myself for being SAD that he wouldn't work around the same area as me. Can you imagine that I kept a look out to see if he would come by me? How pathetic! I was so mad at myself.
He did come by me. At the end of the night. I tried my hardest and didn't make eye contact. Cause if I look him in the eyes...I don't know what confused emotions my heart will send out. When I left for work today...no one was really around the area that I exit out of ..but him. I whistled for him to open the door and let me out. He did and as we waited for the door to open I kept thinking of something to talk about with him...I had to STOP myself. I just thanked him and said bye without looking at him.
I am pathetic. I check the schedules to see when we will work together...even though I barely get to see a lot of him. I constantly look around to see if he is around. I spend more time on my physical appearance. I feel so freakin bad. I feel like a horrible person!
He is nothing compared to my amazing boyfriend whom I love and want to marry very soon. What should I do? I know....stop thinking about this person...stop looking at the schedules....stop looking around to see if he is around....it's hard. I'm so confused...help?
I have a boyfriend that I love with all my soul. I've been with him for 6 years and I would never give us up for anything or anyone.
But I can't stop thinking about this certain person...he appears in my dreams. In the dream that I had...I found out he was married and I was upset. Very upset. I am so freakin confused.
I found him so attractive the first time I laid eyes on him. Weird thing is that he's not even that good looking...and the worst part is that we work at the same place. I even check the schedule to see if I will work with him so I can attempt to look 'pretty' if he sees me. I have never had a long conversation with him but I can't help but smile a lot when he does speak to me.
He doesn't even know how I feel. I am so lame. I don't want to do anything with him. He is not worth it. I don't know him at all. His personality is probably not even my type and there's probably a ton of things we wouldn't like about each other.
It's just...extreme physical attraction. And I feel so bad. Today he worked with me and I became so angry with myself for being SAD that he wouldn't work around the same area as me. Can you imagine that I kept a look out to see if he would come by me? How pathetic! I was so mad at myself.
He did come by me. At the end of the night. I tried my hardest and didn't make eye contact. Cause if I look him in the eyes...I don't know what confused emotions my heart will send out. When I left for work today...no one was really around the area that I exit out of ..but him. I whistled for him to open the door and let me out. He did and as we waited for the door to open I kept thinking of something to talk about with him...I had to STOP myself. I just thanked him and said bye without looking at him.
I am pathetic. I check the schedules to see when we will work together...even though I barely get to see a lot of him. I constantly look around to see if he is around. I spend more time on my physical appearance. I feel so freakin bad. I feel like a horrible person!
He is nothing compared to my amazing boyfriend whom I love and want to marry very soon. What should I do? I know....stop thinking about this person...stop looking at the schedules....stop looking around to see if he is around....it's hard. I'm so confused...help?