oldschoolfan
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I need to share something with yall, I'm a little apprehensive, but I need to get used to sharing it.
I have issues with my appearance. Really bad issues. About a week ago I was told I most likely have Body Dysmorphic Disorder, a condition where sufferers stress about their flaws or perceived flaws so much that it becomes obsessive.
This is something I've had an issue with since I was about 12 years old, and now it's getting so bad that I am constantly thinking about having plastic surgery, checking my reflection in every window and mirror I come across, avoiding talking about my insecurities so people don't tell me otherwise, spending hours looking at photos of people to see how much better looking they are than me and what I need to change to look as good as they do.
I've never really talked about it as much as it stresses me because I know a lot of people complain about the fact they think they look bad to try and get compliments (people kind of have this obligation to tell you you're not ugly when you say you are). I don't believe people when they tell me and I definitely don't want to listen to bullshit comments that are just being said to make me feel better.
This is something that really bothers me, it does tie in with something else I am suffering- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. A lot of people with BDD suffer from mental health disorders too.
The reason I wanted to share with you guys is because I am apprehensive about talking about it, and I have to talk about it with my therapist when I see her next. So best to get used to it now.
In a few weeks I am seeing my therapist to get an official diagnosis, but until then I need to... accept that I have a problem. I'm a little embarrassed about it, so I hope yall realise this is hard for me to share.
Here's a link on BDD so yall can get a better understanding-
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder
I have issues with my appearance. Really bad issues. About a week ago I was told I most likely have Body Dysmorphic Disorder, a condition where sufferers stress about their flaws or perceived flaws so much that it becomes obsessive.
This is something I've had an issue with since I was about 12 years old, and now it's getting so bad that I am constantly thinking about having plastic surgery, checking my reflection in every window and mirror I come across, avoiding talking about my insecurities so people don't tell me otherwise, spending hours looking at photos of people to see how much better looking they are than me and what I need to change to look as good as they do.
I've never really talked about it as much as it stresses me because I know a lot of people complain about the fact they think they look bad to try and get compliments (people kind of have this obligation to tell you you're not ugly when you say you are). I don't believe people when they tell me and I definitely don't want to listen to bullshit comments that are just being said to make me feel better.
This is something that really bothers me, it does tie in with something else I am suffering- Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. A lot of people with BDD suffer from mental health disorders too.
The reason I wanted to share with you guys is because I am apprehensive about talking about it, and I have to talk about it with my therapist when I see her next. So best to get used to it now.
In a few weeks I am seeing my therapist to get an official diagnosis, but until then I need to... accept that I have a problem. I'm a little embarrassed about it, so I hope yall realise this is hard for me to share.
Here's a link on BDD so yall can get a better understanding-
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Body_dysmorphic_disorder