I don't expect many replies to this but meh... I need to get out some feelings I've been bottling up all day.
Tonight was the night I was supposed to be seeing Michael at the O2... My summer has been the worst ever and of course, Michael was supposed to be my shining light in the dark once again, and now he's gone before I had chance to see him, let alone begin to try to explain how much I love him. His passing makes me think perhaps my summer wasn't so bad afterall... Losing him has been worse than almost anything.
I just still can't believe all of this has happened. When I think of the last couple of weeks I think I have been dealing with things pretty well, despite everything. I've kept busy with my job, been spending more time with my boyfriend and been going out more. But tonight has hit me hard. I'm glad I managed to keep busy by doing some paperwork for my job tomorrow otherwise I don't know what I've have been doing. I just keep thinking where I should be, what Michael should be doing, who his children should be with... None of it seems fair or right. I read this post back and it doesn't even begin to express how I feel.
I just want him back so much. I miss him. :1crying
Tonight was the night I was supposed to be seeing Michael at the O2... My summer has been the worst ever and of course, Michael was supposed to be my shining light in the dark once again, and now he's gone before I had chance to see him, let alone begin to try to explain how much I love him. His passing makes me think perhaps my summer wasn't so bad afterall... Losing him has been worse than almost anything.
I just still can't believe all of this has happened. When I think of the last couple of weeks I think I have been dealing with things pretty well, despite everything. I've kept busy with my job, been spending more time with my boyfriend and been going out more. But tonight has hit me hard. I'm glad I managed to keep busy by doing some paperwork for my job tomorrow otherwise I don't know what I've have been doing. I just keep thinking where I should be, what Michael should be doing, who his children should be with... None of it seems fair or right. I read this post back and it doesn't even begin to express how I feel.
I just want him back so much. I miss him. :1crying
It's still hard to believe that he's gone. I miss him so much, and if he were alive those O2 concert would have been great. I find peace knowing that Michael is in Heaven. Now no one can hurt him again.