QuietSoul;211270 said:I would never take my own life, for various reason. However, life isn't the same now. I see the world in a totally different light; everything feels slower. And I will be honest, I have thought, 'What's the point?' 'What is there to live FOR?'
But I have told myself.... I will never let Michael go. He will live in me forever. When I feel the warmth of the sun or hear the birds sing; smell the freshly cut grass or hear a beautiful melody, I will savor it, then send it to Michael. Though he is at peace in a much better place with more than this world could give him, everything I do will be in his memory because he is everything to me.
Like many of you I have thought, "well what is there to live for?" And I haven't really come up with a fantastic answer. As sad as I am, I couldn't take my own life over this. You have to think about others if you're this down.. I have a loving family, friends.. a newly born baby nephew.. I couldn't put my family through the pain that is currently being suffered by Michaels family, friends and fans.
So now, I am living for his memory. I will always remember what an inspiration he was and still is to me. I will never forget that without ever knowing me, he helped me out of a dark place I hope to never return to.. and that he's done the same for millions of other fans. I will always be his fan, and now I will speak out my opinions when others are disrespectful.
I admit to forgetting he was human. I always told myself he was a normal guy at home etc, as he was, but the possibility of death never occurred to me.